Re-do pls

Remember that one time I wrote a post called "welcome to MY crib"? Yeah, that was a fucking joke. I'm moving in 7 days. Long story short, I waited around in hell, living between 2 shit-ass slum-lord apartments for about 5 weeks. Prior to that, I slept at my neighbors, and prior to that, I…

It’s time to be 28

I won't lie, that title was really hard to type. 28 may not seem old to some people, but hell, it's the oldest I've ever been. I haven't allowed myself much time to think about it, and it's not exactly something I am wanting to celebrate. When people see me, I'm sure a lot of…

welcome to MY crib

[[[Life Event]]] She finally lives alone. I now have a complete understanding of when people say that you have to experience living by yourself. I am experiencing the phenomenon and it is beyond ideal. This was my 15th move since my parents divorce, and I have been on the run every 6-9 months since. This…

This freaking night

6 hours ago I was about to have a mental breakdown. In fact, I may have had a small one. Right now, though? Right now I am B E A M I N G . Let's start from the top because it's important to keep in mind my initial mental state. This week began like…

2019

Just a quick reflection before the clock strikes twelve. December 31, 2017 I was in Longmont, Colorado. I didn't have a whole lot going on, but a few days before I had an interview with the University of Colorado, Boulder for an RA position. You see, I had found this lab online and simply emailed…

“happy” holidays

I know some people are hurting this holiday season and I feel for you. Just know that you're not alone. It's about that time of year where I get off social media because, no offense, but I just don't care about your beaming families and 30 year traditions. For me, every year has gotten progressively…

This morning blew. But I honestly didn't expect anything else. Nothing went as planned, but then again it never does when we try this. It was as if someone had physically shaken me for 60 minutes and then threw me on my feet to walk. There was just no way. I lost it driving up…

Nailed it.

This year started out pretty chaotic, but in the end, it was all worth it. (as it always is) I left Maryland [again] because I was unhappy and spinning my wheels. I could not possibly waste anymore time as I was somehow already 26. When I moved back out to Colorado I had goals. 1.…

The Great Pretender

Your name came up today. I'm usually unaffected when this happens. Today it stopped me in my tracks. I want to scream in your face that I hate you, that I hate you more than anyone on this screwed up plant. I HATE YOU. But why hate you? You wouldn't be hurt by my hate.…

It’s a wrap!

In August, I took a trip out to Colorado to see some of my favorite people and places, the first time I had been back since I moved home 15 months previously. After briefly seeing a coworker and learning that my same position was currently open, I pretty much decided right then and there that I was…