I sit here
on my floor
as I do most every night
accomplishing whatever
but there’s always something 
I’m tired
mentally vacant
as I am most every night
out of mental resources
out of fucks
My effort, greater
I improved, barely
as I do most every time
it’s as good as nothing
it’s the same as nothing
feels like a heavy blanket
as it does most every time
I fall asleep with it
I wake up with it